I’ve officially lost everything I ain’t even mad at anyone about it either except for maybe me but that’s not the point of this post I’m trying to remain positive here and not be a Debbie downer lol mostly because I’m tired of being here like this ending up back at the same place I started at it’s kindve frustrating but oh well… I feel fat and ugly today even though I just had sex like 20 mins ago which is usually the only thing that can make me feel better about myself I wish I could figure out what’s wrong with me like I see the same pictures all yall see looking back at me when I look in th… Read more

I’m broke Af and can’t afford my hormones so I’m gonna have to get off of them in like 5 weeks unfortunately it sucks because I was just getting kindve pretty but in typical my life fashion I lost my job and can’t afford them at all hell I can’t afford to live I’m going to be a hooker no joke and try to get the money I need for my hormones but iunno if I’ll be able to get enough money quick enough unfortunately and of course I lost all my skills doing this shit so now the only thing I even can do is be a hooker so yea that’s where my life is headed little diary it’ll be fine I’ll sale my body… Read more

Yes little diary j got my nails done and it was really awesome they are beautiful I love them soo much I’m tired so this will be short but getting my nails done today made me realize I’m kindve beautiful even more so than originally thought I’m happy despite personal problems my private diary’s been getting most of the work lately anyways be good or at least be good at it little diary I love you goodnight… Read more

Thank god they approved my pics! Cause it was hung up saying that wasn’t me so I deleted the pics of me in any makeup so they’d believe it lol so I’ve added 16 new pics the original gallery was with my profile picture which is me with makeup and it got approved! Finally lol I can send some new pics to people it was flagged saying I needed to tag people in it and I was like wtf and deleted me with any makeup thank god they approved it I was starting to wonder how the fuck I was gonna get them on here when I couldn’t tag anybody else cause that is me! I mean I have matching tattoos and stuff lol… Read more

Get on my fucking nerves sometimes it’s like they don’t trust me when I open up my world for them and then they leave me in the dark cause I’m their gd guilty pleasure the woman they cheat on their wives with NOT the woman they marry it just gets soo fucking old believe me there is a reason behind this little rant little diary and I won’t name names but if you think this is about you then it probably is…I won’t go into specifics but there’s this guy who’s a great guy honestly but he’s soo gd frustrating I want to pull my gd hair out sometimes I don’t want to explain more than that cause it’s t… Read more

Of men that don’t give a fuck about me I’m sitting here sobbing cause I just buried my cat and I’ve got men demanding I send them pictures or vids or meet them somewhere or disregarding what I’m telling them to then start talking about themselves it just gets old cause the literal only thing I want is to find my person and spend the rest of my goddamn life with them but nobody wants that with a trans girl its like I’m ok to beat off to or watch fucking but not ok to be a decent human to I’m tired so I’m gonna pass out for some hours little diary be good or at least be good at it… Read more

Of men it sucks cause I love men but it’s like I’m an entree at a buffet getting picked at by every guy who walks by or sees my social media it just gets old you know? Little diary it’s just I’m not getting any younger and I’m tired is all I’m tired of waiting to get saved by a man lol I know wishful thinking got me in this position but I’m not ever going to get to be myself I just found out I need 12k +or- to get my teeth fixed and that’s after insurance pays their bit they are gonna pay side note dental insurance is the biggest joke on the planet so I’m fucked now I’m not getting my teeth fi… Read more

Realized I’m fucking gorgeous I know my last post mentioned it but gd I’m the hotty with the bangin body!! Lmao yea I’m laughing cause I’m crazy happy about it I’ve been waiting for this time now it’s mani pedi time then finish my tattoos and then all the sudden bam I’m pornstar hot lol I’m on cloud 9 tonight plus little diary i actually got to eat for the first day in the previous 7 and I even got like 3 dr pepper’s! lol i need to do my makeup just to be make sure I haven’t forgotten how lol but yea even without makeup im fucking holy shit beautiful and my body is the best part now I can go t… Read more

Fucking hot did you know that little diary it’s amazing all it took was 2+ years of estrogen for me to be kindve pretty lol well now I’ve gotta fight to stay on estrogen it’s done a complete body transformation on me and made my body be kindve beautiful at some point if I get around to it I’ll post my starting pics lol I’m really pretty pleased about my results I’m not there yet but if I can somehow afford (I’m broke and owe my hormone people like 100 dollars) to stay on hormones I’ll end up kindve pretty before I die so who needs a 25 dollar bj? Lmao i kid I kid now I just need clothes and I’… Read more

Get on here and bitch about my life some more especially after the events of today I might explain at some point or I might not but either way it doesn’t matter what’s supposed to happen will happen and there’s no point getting on here and trauma dumping to thousands of people who understandably quite frankly don’t really give a damn so yea I’m broke and haven’t eaten until today for the past like 3 days and yes it’s cause I’m flat broke but again that’s all my problem I WILL make it and nobody will fucking stop me from it but I might have to get off hormones for a while cause of my current mo… Read more

lol yea had a bad day today I won’t explain everything but i will say I hope tomorrow is better just know I wish….i wish I was normal, I wish I was wealthy, I wish I was pretty to me, I wish I was lovable, I wish …… Read more

How I could give up being a man and become a trans girl and while sure It would have been much easier to just say fuck it and unalive myself the truth is I took my first breath of air as a trans girl what do I mean by that? Well I started out life we all know as a man a pretty decent looking one with tons of privelidge and even money and I gave that all up cause on may 5 2018 I tried to do just that unalive myself and waking up and saying fuck it and exploring my sexuality was the best thing I ever decided to do. I took my first breaths of air in realizing I’ve always been trans or really acce… Read more

Im tired of being here I need another job my talents have severely taken a hit and i have no skills I can type legibly enough I guess but I’m tired of this shit I gave up something i probably shouldn’t have given up for something that im not convinced really wants me…anyways now that ive done that iunno i honestly feel more alone than ever and im not pleased with the result of being here this diary has become very sporadic and its cause I don’t want to write anything in it that isn’t all flowers and sunshine so that’s why I haven’t been posting lately cause my life isn’t all flowers and sunshi… Read more

Im tired of money I need it and now I have no skills to acquire it other than hooking lol but yea I'm fucked little diary wish I wasn't but apparently I am anyways yea I've got other problems too just not that I'd like to put out there publicly but I'm going to try my best and pass out I know I haven't been on as much lately and I understand my diary is taking a backseat but iunno what to do anymore so I'm just going to do my best to not have a public mental breakdown and just go to sleep goodnight little diary be good or at least be good at it!… Read more

But so what I’m alive is all you need to know lol I’ve been trying to get some things going but I’d be lying if i said I’m alone on that but Im tired of tooth aches lol my back right bottom wisdom tooth is crazy in pain like every 2.5 hours I’ve gotta take a pill cocktail or my face feels like it’s gonna fall the fuck off me lol I’ll be back later to finish this …… Read more

Lol had a married guy who lives within one mile of me beg to "use my hole" then proceeded to get angry when I said "no thanks" and told me he would r@ pe me to death lmao the guy was like 5'7" according to his profile lol and I was like shutup you tiny bitch or ill put your ass in my pocket lmao gtfo here with your little ass if that man only knew I'd eat him even after 2 years of hormones weapons or no weapons I don't care thing is I've been trained practiced and yes even used my weapons before people need to chill out some just cause when he asked me or really demanded I let him fuck me I to… Read more

Lol you expected me to be crying huh? Lol well no tears here today today's not horrible and I'm actually happy cause it's my birthday and there's no reason to be sad cause I'm lonely or upset cause I'm broke cause it's a beautiful day it's a beautiful cloudy not warm day lmao naw but I'm happy cause I was born today like 50000 years ago lol yes im getting soo old which sucks but it's just another day I am happy though cause I've been wished a million happy bdays already mostly cause I'm loud about it being my bday lol or well not quiet about it but as of this moment little diary I'm happy chec… Read more

Is in like 8 hours lol and I'm not thrilled about being another year older but I guess I'm happy enough just not about that lol ill get back on and write about it and my day when I get a chance anyways until later little diary Yea you didn't miss anything little diary just spent my birth moment alone another one down only like 75 more to go lol Yea I'm happy though I don't know why but I'm content to make it another year almost getting old now no that's the next one that marks me as old lol I'm gonna log on periodically just to update future me on this my birthday in the year of our lord 2025… Read more

My new shorts but iunno how ok Lol had a lady at the gas station tell me if I lived at her house I wouldn't be going anywhere dressed like that ( cause my shorts were too short she knows im trans and is always very nice to me) and my first thought was extremely transphobic... af lol and I'm obviously not transphobic cause well I'm Trans lol but that Comercial with that guy talking to his wife popped into my head where he's sitting there on the phone with a guy friend and his wife is accusing him of talking to another woman and he's like well she's a guy lmao but luckily my very rare filter mad… Read more

I was destitute like so broke I wasn't worth two nickels and in comes superman(T) to save my day not all heroes wear capes but thank God for him my bills are paid and I've got money for some clothes including a bigger bra thank God!! I was starting to worry my boobies were gonna be relegated to living in a small 1 bedroom studio apartment forever lol and now I'm good again tomorrow I'm going to go buy a bra and some shorts and maybe a couple t shirts I need makeup which is way to expensive for me currently but oh well I'm happy i almost busted out crying when the lady at the walmart herlp cent… Read more